I thou staying by ur side would make my heart hurts..therefore, i choose to leave..
But after leaving u, my heart hurts even more..it's hopeless.

Sometimes i really wish tat i dun noe u at all..perhaps, life would be easier...
I serious dun want to say tat and I'm well aware tat regardless of what i said now, it would still be known as "escaping from problem, running away from reality."
Yet, to restart is e only solution unless both of us decide to give up totally which i wont dare to imagine...Can u come up with another alternative?

Do u noe tat... I Love U?
I Still Love U.

Cloned Heartz
10/20/2006 12:59:00 AM

16th of oct
1st day of sch(sem 4)..class started early in e mornin(8am) n ended very early(9.30am) as well when it was suppose to end at 12pm..
Went clementi alone to bank in my cheque..suppose to be happy one..but after realizing tat i'd lose e braclet which i jus bought e day before..i was furious n mad with myself..how can i be so careless?? ARGH!!!
Anyway, bought 5 hairbands of diff designs n colours to cheer myself up a little..

17th of oct
woke up late!! wat's wrong with my phone alarm sia?? it doesn't ring at all..was awaken up by a phone call..lucky me..thanks to whoever tat is..

we were like strangers now.
why?
we din talk to each other.
why?
we din even have eye contact/smile with/to each other.
why?
we feel awkward walking side by side.
why?
we dun feel comfortable with each other's presense
why?

Cloned Heartz
10/18/2006 03:16:00 PM

Tis time..Let nature takes its course..
tat's wat i believe i'll start to live up to.
I dun wan to start building hope n ended up dropping down, high from e built hope.

Sch's startin on comin monday..not sure if i'm really prepared(mentally) for e sems..how am i goin to face u? i dunno..it'll seems rather strange to start speaking to u again when i come to think of it..wat shall i do? Ended my 3rd sems with a sad memory..am i gonna start my 4th sems with a gloomy feel as well?

Sometimes i wonder, wat's in store for me if i choose multimedia comp at SP instead? my classmates, coursemates, daily routines, meals, lecturers, timetables, CCAs etc..(basically, all these are under e big word: "LIFE") would be all different..
Will i like tat? i dunno..i wont noe..n i'll never get to noe..tis is e path which i've choosen..or was it FATE?
Well, i still like my course(FSV), my mates(them lo..u dunno meh?), my meals at SIM(esp. e Tom Yum Ban Mian n e grilled fish n chips) n e canteens there, my lecturers(Chin Boo! Wendy Wee!), timetables(Oh, i got wed free for tis sems=D..last sems was on fri..Yippee!!), CCAs(Song Composing Club n Hi!Club)..
So, i guess tat concluded tat i still like my life afterall huh..
if i really got to say, for most of e time (70%), yes i'm happy in FSV.
However, there r still times when i'm unhappy (30%)..n it's all becos of... ... ...

Cloned Heartz
10/14/2006 02:43:00 AM

WOOHOOHAA~
I jus came back from e class(2/6'02 OSS) chalet!
And...i still feel energetic...despite slping for only approx. 11hrs for e 3days 2night stay.
We rock!
Making all these possible isnt as easy but i'm glad we left e place with lots of good memories.
As this chalet marks an end to e 3rd sems holiday, we got to start mentally prepare ourselves for e new sems already..everything has to hv an end but i'm sure we'll hv such bonding n gathering sessions again right?
=D i must say tat i really enjoyed myself during e chalet.
Ok, let me recap wat we did during e 3days 2night.

Day 1 (4th Oct 2006):
2.00pm - Met Tze at her house bus-stop to help carry Prawns (sponsored by Tze's parent)
3.00pm - Met Wang, Pris, Mel, Shan at chinatown Sheng Siong then travel down to Aloha Loyang Garden Terrace Freesia (F) in Wang father's n Shan father's car respectively
4.00pm - Check-in n House cleaning
5.55pm - Took shuttle bus down to pasir ris for dinner n to buy items we need or haven buy
8.00pm - Taking shuttle bus back..but forgot to but eggs so Wang got off e bus to buy
8.15pm - E bus drove off w/o Wang n so we asked him to take cab back since e next bus is an hour or so later n since it wont cost much
8.30pm - Games time (Mahjong, Jenga, UNO, Big 2, HeartAttack)
4.00am - Breakfast..order from Mcdonald..
something interesting to share:

4.30am - Lyn called from US to wish Tze "Happy Birthday" when nobody bothers to say tat to her..ahahah..
6.00am - Lights out..(ahaha, we slp so early sia..)

Day 2 (5th Oct 2006):
11.45am - Me woke up..e rest hv already taken e BBQ food from e wholesale..
1.00pm - Shan MaMa cooked Mee n fried eggs, some crabmeat n hotdog for us..
Thou not very nice(cos one go cook 5packets not easy la..) n quite dried(cos we left it there for quite some time while waitin for e side dishes..), i could felt e warmth like tat of a family..
2.00pm - Kel reached n we continued playin our games..
6.30pm - people started comin in n Wang started e fire..
7.00pm - BBQ-in

..HeeHee..Shan MaMa
8.00pm - E cake for Tze n Thien Hoon came..(we thou Tze knew it le but in e end, no..she din guessed it)so e surprise works well.


10.30pm - Clearing up e whole area
11.58pm - Give Tze her pressie which almost became belated..(Left 2mins)
12.00am - Games, Bathe, watch shows
4.30am - Lights out(for me la)

Day 3 (6th Oct 2006):
10.15pm - Woke up(for me la) n then pack things
10.45pm - ByeBye to e place n came home in Shan father's car

Note: e timin not exact one..jus approx. =)
Ok, tat's it..i've to get ready for work later at 7..=)

Cloned Heartz
10/06/2006 04:18:00 PM

I dun meant to give u tat reaction.
Was waitin for u to notice it's me but u only did realised it's me after i passby u..
i knew it cos u spotted familiar trait of me but u din call out my name..
I WANT TO GIVE UP.

SCC Camp was once again, fun. More games were played tis time..but but i felt being sabo sia..why forefeet always got me one? even when I'm e 1st 5 winners of e chicken game..1st is Pole Dance, den got wat use back-side write e words: "Song Composing" n pairing up with another person to do a 10-continuous shots..
somemore, got one game play until my butt very painful..but very fun thou..i like tat game best out of all..(i forgot e game name..something got to do with fillin e hole..)

I also like e activity for night 1: Stage Presence Performance
Where each of e 5groups got to pick a person within tat group n start to dress him/her up with materials like newspapers, garbage bags, balloons, n others things which we can find..e important thing is tat e overall costume must suit e song choosen cos tat person gonna sing in tat costume after we dress him/her up.
E host for tat activity is Derrick Ho..he very funny n lame sia..very suitable to be a host besides a singer..personally, i think e whole activity is very successful as all e 5groups perform until very pro..n they really dance, shake hands, do emo motions very well..ahaha

A pity i cant join e night game for night 2: The Night Tour (Scary)..cos they start at ard 1 den i got to leave early cos next day got work in e mornin..thought can still catch a bus home at 12.05am one..but after waitin till 12.20am alone at e bus-stop, i took a cab home.

Cloned Heartz
10/04/2006 02:56:00 AM