I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraidI will never want to end things in a sad way unless it's way too out of my control.
Even my latest darkest lyric about self-multilation shows signs of hope at e end.
Someone said something today after SCC Monthly Performance at KAP: how about writing a sad song? a really sad song? and one of my friends suddenly turned and looked at me and said: ur songs are all very sad..can leh. Then i was thinkin..is tat true?
And she was right..yeah, most of my lyrics which i'd shown them were all very sad and helpless and even hopeless..i will try something new..i will, i hope. People say that lyrics r mostly about ur life so wat does tat reflects about me?
Now for something light~
Let's look at wat i had for dinner last night...
I'm sorry if it looks gross to u..but it really tasted very nice.
btw, tat is 80% cooked salmon if u still couldn't figure it out.
Fish! oh, i jus loves eating fishes..can we eat goldfish? is it edible?
There is only one kind of fish which i wont eat n tat is clownfish..cos clownfish=nemo =p
Lucky them..
and..no, it wasn't me who whipped up tat dish..
He, who came back home with a piece of raw salmon, cucumbers, tomatos and a lemon, suddenly said tat he wants to cook dinner for me..n so..i saved my dinner money n waited for it to be served.
And tat guy is none other than my brother. Thanks di =D
Forgetting about e little girlish secret about my brother, i have to say that he is a great cook. Having great potential in tis field becos of my dad's gene is a great gift, but i'm not jealous cos i've gotten e gene of being artistically capable from my dad. Thanks dad =D
